He loves me

He loves me like his favourite teddy bear
A thing, a possession
Never to be let go
Worn out and tatty
Well loved but of no real value
Not particularly important
Easily replaced

He loves me like a princess
Beautiful, important, highly valued
With purposes yet unknown
But definitely of worth
A priceless gem
To be sought after
And cherished

Silent Scream

Sometimes I just want to scream – but I don’t. I keep it all inside and maybe it drives me ever so slightly insane. I can’t process. My heart is heavy and sore. I have dark thoughts sometimes – I won’t do anything about them but they still torment me. I want relief. Maybe I’ll just have a drink and go to bed. Maybe I can sleep this sorrow away?

Silent scream,
Internal turmoil,
Listening to the demons telling me to
End it all.
Nowhere to turn
To find relief.

Silent scream,
Complex emotions,
Rage and frustration
Exhausted with life
Am I alone?
Maybe

When was the last time?

When was the last time you rolled down a hill
Or chased a butterfly that wouldn’t stay still?
When was the last time you lay on the grass
And watched the cloud shapes slowly pass?
Who told us that growing older
Meant we had to grow up?

When was the last time you ran through the leaves
Or built a den among the trees?
When was the last time you climbed to a branch
And watched so still as everyone passed?
Who told us that growing older
Meant we had to grow up?

When was the last time you built an igloo
Or made some angels in snow that’s new?
When was the last time you got on a sledge
And flew down a hill with your heart on edge?
Who told us that growing older
Meant we had to grow up?

When was the last time you played on a swing
Or made daisy chains while the birds would sing?
When was the last time you flew a kite
And watched it soar with colours so bright?
Who told us that growing older
Meant we had to grow up?

When was the last time you just had fun,
Felt as free as a child playing in the sun?
When was the last time you did something daft
And didn’t care if anyone laughed?
Who told us that growing older
Meant we had to grow up?

I don’t want to grow up!