It’s the middle of the night here in the UK but I can’t sleep. I’m sitting here drinking camomile tea and tossing up between ironing or ordering food shopping 😝. I don’t really want to do either of those things so instead I’m writing this post.
Don’t worry. I haven’t forgotten how to talk to God. I talk to Him a lot. I share my feelings with Him all the time and I tell Him even the things that no one else knows – I mean why not? He knows anyway.
My difficulty is that once again we have a friend who has cancer. The doctors can do no more. They’re using words like ‘palliative care’ again. We’ve been here before. More than once. Each time my friends have been asking God for a miracle. Each time I’ve prayed for that with them. I know God heals (I’ve seen this before too). I believe He wants to heal. I’ve expected God to heal. So far (if I’m remembering correctly) only one out of many friends and family members has been healed from cancer.
So how do I pray? Am I doing something wrong? I remember a few years ago teaching on this very subject in church. It was a difficult time. We had not long since lost a young friend to cancer. Many of us were struggling with continuing to ask God to heal. I’d go back and reread that sermon now but I lost it when my hard drive packed in so I don’t know if there’s anything that God was saying to me back then that would have helped me now. Probably. I remember that in essence I felt that I shouldn’t stop asking.
It gets harder to keep asking though. I mean I still do. I still know God can. I just don’t get why so often it doesn’t happen. I know God isn’t a genie in a bottle but He is God and He tells us He’s willing to heal and I know He’s able to heal so what am I missing?
I guess I’ve heard most of the answers to my question already too. I’d be surprised if you can give me an answer I haven’t heard before (feel free to try though). I’m just putting this out there because it’s on my mind tonight. Someone gave a word this morning about keys at church (related to something different) and I feel like there’s a key somewhere to be discovered where healing is concerned. I’d love to know where it is. I’m sure I’ll keep looking because it feels like I need to find it.
I came across this picture the other day on Facebook and it kinda sums up my experience. It’s certainly been true for me that loss is not a straightforward step by step process to work through – I’ve been all over the place. However, that’s not really what I wanted to talk about.
A couple of things yesterday spoke to me about reading scripture to help us with different situations and emotions. I know – this is not new and it’s certainly not rocket science but maybe it was the reminder I needed? I’m kinda assuming God wanted me to think about it at least since I pretty much got the same message from three different sources.
First my devotional was talking about reading scripture often to allow it to penetrate our hearts and minds and reminding me that there is a scripture for everything we face. I think I’ll look up some for the various stages of grief and use them if I’m struggling with that area.
Next I read the Lion Bites from GPC which was talking about God’s voice and speaking scripture. Here is the bit that stuck out to me.
As you declare God’s word, His powerful force invades and causes all things to come into alignment with Him and His rule. Take courage today that you are called and empowered to speak life and love into people and atmospheres and see real, tangible change.
Then I went to visit my lovely mentor who brought up the song ‘I can only imagine’ – a young friend of hers has just died from cancer and she was talking about how the song was written in a time of loss. She was saying that even in those most difficult times God still has plans that are bigger than we can imagine. She was telling me to dream big. Then she too was talking about Bible promises that we can lean on to get us through.
Now to him who by the power at work within us is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine. Eph 3:20
If I had time right now I’d come up with that list of Scriptures and put them here but I have a big birthday party to get organised for my Dad this weekend. If you have any thoughts about good verses for me let me know. I’ll leave just one here that’s been helpful for me recently.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Prov 3:5-6