I was recently reading this book by Bill Johnson for the night class I’m attending (virtually these days) through church. As an assignment for the class we had to write a short reflection on the book and I mentioned this in a previous post. Today I wanted to go back and reread what I had said in the reflection; partly because I know that there were some things I planned to act on after writing it and I wanted to make sure that I’m doing this. I thought while I was going back over it I’d share it here to let you guys in on some of my recent thoughts about faith. Please feel free to leave questions or comments but be gentle – a lot of this is stuff that’s still pretty raw for me and I’m still processing and working through. I’m not at the end of this journey yet – maybe I never will be. So without further ado – here it is:
Reflection on When Heaven Invades Earth by Bill Johnson
On reading this book there were so many things that stood out for me; things that I want to be able to put into practise. For the purposes of this reflection I’ve narrowed these down to four main themes that I felt were particularly powerful for me (in no particular order) – power, presence, testimony and superior reality.
The first theme I want to look at is power. I realise that my appetite for the impossible has shrunk over the years and that I have not been expecting miracles to happen in or through me. Although I knew that anyone could access the prophetic, I was guilty of believing it was not my gift and therefore neglecting the prophetic. I have buried the gifts I was aware that I had out of fear of man or fear of being wrong. I feel like my Christianity has been a compromise – there has been little supernatural power involved and little impact for the Kingdom.
Reading this book has given me an increased desire to see this change. As it states in Chapter 11 “to re-present Him without power is a major shortcoming.” I want to display the power of God in and through my life so that the people I come into contact with get a true representation of Jesus. I realise that to do this I will have to be bold and take risks but in doing this I will become dangerous to the enemy. In Chapter 3 we see that “Hidden sin…has kept us from the purity that breeds boldness and great faith.” I want boldness and great faith so I’m going to look to God to expose any hidden sin in my life so that I can be pure. I intend to pray specifically about diseases that I want to see God heal through me and for the boldness to be obedient and the tenacity to keep on doing it even if I don’t see results straight away.
The second theme I felt was significant is the presence of God. I feel that there have been seasons in my walk with God that I have been intimate with Him but I know that there is more. I have been guilty of striving and being led by my intellect rather than living out of a place of rest and allowing Him to lead me. I feel that I have also allowed others to influence my life more than I should have rather than listening to God. I know that my hunger and my passion for God is not what it has been in the past and I want that back.
I am already starting to spend more of my quiet time worshipping and developing intimacy with God. I am realising increasingly that what I need is His presence more than anything else and I want that continual anointing. I want to feel His manifested presence as I walk with Him minute by minute. I want a deeper encounter with the Trinity and to live completely surrendered to God. I am praying for a hunger for the presence of the Spirit of God in my life so that I will be changed and humbled and He will be glorified.
Chapter 2 states that “When we are silent, we have chosen to keep those who would hear away from eternal life.” This was a bit of a wake-up call for me. I am often silent – about many things – and I have not been particularly vocal about my faith; in particular I have not been evangelistic. I don’t want to limit other people’s opportunities to come to Jesus. I have also listened to scepticism about the miraculous and allowed myself to be swayed towards unbelief. I know that I have also believed lies about the value of what I have to say.
I am praying that I will conquer and be released from whatever it is that stops me from boldly speaking out. I have already begun to declare the truth of what God says, out loud, every day and will continue to do this. I also intend to make a point of reading and watching more testimonies about what God is doing to feed myself and increase my expectation and desire for the supernatural. I know that God’s natural realm is the supernatural and what He has done before He will do again. I am declaring that when I speak people will come to know Him. I will continue to listen to God so that my faith is increased. I want to speak out the message of the Kingdom and see that backed up with His power.
For many years in my Christian walk I have lost sight of the superior reality of the kingdom and focused too much on the ‘natural’. Like many Christians I have prayed for people who have not received healing and that has led to a fear of appearing to live in denial. I think I have been guilty of focusing more on my inability than on His ability and I realise that I need my mind to be transformed.
I now understand that there is reality and a superior reality. The reminder that Jesus lived as a man and could do nothing in himself, that He performed miracles and signs and wonders in right relationship to God made me acknowledge that as a Christian I should be doing this too. I want to live a life of ‘history-changing significance’. I repent of my wrong thinking and surrender completely to God’s rule. I am choosing to agree with God and stop partnering with what appears to be the truth in the natural. I will ask God to open my eyes so that I will be more aware of the superior reality of the mysteries of His Kingdom.
In conclusion I want to stop living as a ‘good person’ and instead live as a citizen of heaven on earth. I want to insist on a supernatural lifestyle that truly allows the world to encounter Christ. I abandon my heart completely to Him and I am praying for a faith that brings the reality of heaven to earth. I want a faith that knows God will do it when I pray for healing. I want to discover who God truly is and put aside the religious misconceptions I have had which affect my faith. I want to take up the authority He has given me and move in that. I want to have a faith that “moves heaven, so that heaven will move earth.”